Sometimes you wonder what you want to do with your life. Especially when you are younger and unsure. As you get older you wonder did you make the right decisions? Are you on the path your supposed to be on? Have you strayed from what’s important to YOU? These are things that I wonder all the time. Trying to measure success by monetary value. But as I have gotten older I’ve learned that what I really want is comfort in being able to do what I what when I want. It’s not about the money but it is. You have to pay bills in this society, bills that last forever. Well, I’ve made a plan so many times but have yet to be able to execute it through. I know what I need to do but struggle getting it done. I like writing but I also like gaming and most importantly doing things with my family. I have finally got a good stride on streaming and playing warzone with my friends online over at twitch.tv. But, I want to do so much more. Twitch.tv could get me what I want hit it would take a tremendous amount of work. It’s already cost me a small fortune to get it right. And the ROI is combined with luck. Every rich person I know tells me there is luck involved. Some people call it fait but others know it’s just luck. It’s luck that put you where you needed to be to find that person. It’s luck that make you a likable person. It’s luck that gave you the knowledge to do whatever skill you are good at. It’s determination to strive to find that good thing and work on it. It’s determination to keep you driving to find that thing that will enlighten you on your path.
Sometimes I find myself wondering is this what I’m supposed to do. I want to know if I can do something more fun. Go back to riding bmx or even mountain bikes or riding snowboards, or is that time past me. Not because I’m older but because I’m not physically able to for medical reasons. When I start to think of that I think of a friend I grew up with whom was disabled medically. We had him ride bikes with us and even carry the cooler on lake trips even though he could barely walk. I think of him and other friends who are worse off then I am sometimes and remember it could always be worse. Reminding myself that I am where I am supposed to be at this time in my life’s journey. And remember to live day by day and just be greatful you are still alive on this planet with friends and family. Things get better all the time even if it gets worse first. So if you are reading this I hope it helps you as well. Just keep moving forward and things are going to be better.